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哈囉我是阿滴,大家從標題應該就知道我今天想分享什麼了。我在猜會蠻多人有點驚訝,覺得阿滴怎麼會有憂鬱症?事業看起來蠻成功、有這麼多朋友而且還有妹妹,有什麼好憂鬱的~不過如果比較有follow我的人應該會發現我在去年大概年底有消失了一陣子,阿滴日常停更,阿滴英文影片就是勉強一兩週更新一次,那段期間是我最嚴重的時候。
事實上,我從去年在紐時刊登廣告那一波忙完之後就開始有一些憂鬱傾向了。常常會覺得自己很爛、對工作表現很焦慮、睡眠障礙很嚴重、會很害怕網路上的批評、 也會無故地悲傷哭泣。不過當時的我沒有太警覺說自己是不是生病了,因為YouTuber的職業一直以來就是蠻高壓的,我就想說繼續撐著繼續工作應該自然就會好了。
但是後續的幾個月又綜合的承受了接二連三龐大的壓力,我撐到大概9月這一切的壓力就在某次爆發了。那是一場在台南的演講,我在台上發現我喘不過氣,幾乎無法思考,也提不起精神把準備好的內容講出來,只能草草的結束趕回台北休息。那天晚上我對自己的處境陷入了很大的恐慌跟絕望,在床上發抖哭泣,我才發現我真的不太對勁了。
我是在9月底第一次去看身心科,醫生一開始診斷我為焦慮症並開藥,但一週後我的症狀越來越嚴重,後續回診時醫生開了抗憂鬱的藥給我。當時候的我很急著想要趕快好起來,所以我也在醫生的建議下同步去別的診所進行心理諮商。還在朋友的介紹下嘗試rTMS治療,用磁力儀器去刺激被憂鬱症影響的腦部,反正現代醫學有的療法我幾乎都試過了。
那段日子真的很黑暗,我現在回想起來會用「行屍走肉」來形容。每一天都極度悲傷壓抑,陷入毀滅性思考的迴圈,覺得自己一無是處、後悔以前的各種決定、覺得未來一點希望都沒有,想到腦子都發燙發麻也不能控制,恐慌到全身會不自主地發抖。喪失所有動力跟精力,做什麼都無法開心,連微笑都做不到,情緒只剩下焦慮跟憂鬱,甚至連龍貓這種超無害的動畫都會無法連續看15分鐘。躺著休息也不行、嘗試工作也不行,每天都非常的痛苦光是活著就用盡力氣了。
快轉到現在,將近一年後,大家應該看得出來我已經好很多很多了,甚至可以做影片跟大家分享這一段旅程。想做這支影片的原因主要是覺得,我的經歷跟康復的過程可能可以幫助一些正在憂鬱症中掙扎的人們,同時也想要推廣心理健康的重視,讓更多人能夠意識到這個疾病的可能。
✰✰✰不過我要先聲明,我不是心理醫師也不是諮商師。我分享的全部都是我主觀的經驗,並不能夠代表所有病患。憂鬱症是很複雜的疾病,希望大家把這支影片當作參考就好,有需要的話還是要以專業醫生的意見為主✰✰✰
首先我們來講針對憂鬱症,你可能不知道的事:
1. 憂鬱跟憂鬱症並不一樣
憂鬱只是情緒,憂鬱症則是一個大腦神經物質失調的疾病。每個人都會有難過的情緒,但是憂鬱跟憂鬱症不一樣,舉個例子,如果身邊的親人過世了,感到憂鬱是很正常的,當我們學會了在沒有那個人的世界繼續生活下去時,這樣的悲痛就會消失。但是憂鬱症是因為自我厭惡產生的悲痛,覺得糟糕的是自己,所以似乎沒有終點。憂鬱症引發的悲傷情緒是遠比一般水平強烈的,通常有幾個明確的指標,包含:心情超過兩週的持續悲傷、對原本有興趣的事物失去興趣、對自我的無價值感與罪惡感、以及反覆地想到死亡或有自殺意念。
2. 憂鬱症病患並不是抗壓性差
很多人會覺得憂鬱症患者就是草莓玻璃心,一點點壓力就受不了。這個敘述不完全正確。雖然這樣講有點自誇但是我不覺得我是一個抗壓性差的人,我過去很勇於承擔責任跟壓力跟輿論,但是太過追求完美的個性讓這些壓力不斷累積,到最後才爆掉了。所以很多憂鬱症的人在患病前其實都是承擔了一般人無法想像的創傷或是壓力,才會得到這個病。在得病之後自我厭惡的壓力就已經爆表了,就像是一個充滿氣的氣球,所以再多任何一點點壓力就會爆掉。
3. 憂鬱症病患無法控制自己的思考
在憂鬱症發時,我會無法自拔地陷入負面的反芻(rumination)思考,有點像是一般人的悲觀乘上好幾倍然後反覆的反覆的不斷往下繞圈圈。生活中的所有事情都會看起來很黑暗、沒希望,滿腦子充滿了荒謬的劇本:我會失去工作、付不出員工的薪水、朋友們都會離開我甚至會家破人亡等等。這種思考無法控制,也很難停止,真的不是想開一點就可以解決的事。同一個想法會卡在腦子裡面很久,會需要一些藥物輔助跟親友或專業諮商師大量的溝通跟排解。
4. 憂鬱症會讓患者變遲鈍
以前我一直都以為憂鬱症只是會影響心情,但是得到憂鬱症才發現它會直接影響你思考的速度還有記憶力。我嚴重時讀書讀到第二行就會忘記第一行在講什麼了。在錄影時就算有逐字稿,直接照稿一個字一個字讀也會做不太到。這件事真的造成我很大的恐慌,因為嚴重喪失工作能力,自信心也受到很大的打擊,開始擔心自己是不是會慢慢失智。但是這個並不是不可逆的,憂鬱症好轉後,我已經恢復大部分的思考速度跟記憶力。
5. 憂鬱症是有機會改善的
這點我覺得是最重要的。網路上跟憂鬱症相關的文章有很多,但不一定全部都是正確的。我記得我在初期有看到一些說法是憂鬱症是終生不會好的疾病,讓我打擊非常大,陷入絕望跟無助甚至是自暴自棄。但是,憂鬱症其實是有機會治療的,也可以大幅度改善症狀,擁有這個信念對於康復的幫助非常大,對於自己的信念會很有幫助。
所以,接下來我想來分享一下我自己覺得對我的恢復有幫助的事情:
1. 相信醫生說的話,按時吃藥
我一開始其實不是一個很聽話的病患,醫生開的藥或是講的話我都不是那麼信任,也會自己去Google一大堆似是而非的資訊,覺得自己應該要用網路上面說的方式解決憂鬱症。但是在換了好幾個診所跟醫生後我發現相信醫生專業的判斷才是最重要的。需要吃藥的時候就吃藥,需要換藥的時候就換藥,一直懷疑藥物或是療程是不是最正確的會延誤一些治療時間,也會造成不必要的心理壓力。
2. 改變對自己說話的方式
憂鬱症患者的想法會不斷的攻擊自己,自尊心自信心自我價值感都會相當低落。不過這樣對自己說話的方式也不是一時半刻養成的,而是在得病前就已經形成的習慣。雖然病發時很難控制自己的想法,還是要想辦法改變這個對自己說話的方式。我從書上看到的一個我覺得很有效的方法是在早上剛醒意識還有點模糊的時候,趁機對自己說或者是想很多正面的鼓勵的言語,像是「我愛自己」、「你是很棒的人」等等。大腦在這時候會比較能接受這些想法,慢慢養成習慣。我是在實施這個作法一週後就有感自己早上起床沒有這麼痛苦,一整天的想法也比較能夠放過自己。
3. 活在當下,不想過去跟未來
在發病的時候,我發現我會不斷的悔恨過去跟懼怕未來,沒有辦法好好的be present。所以後來我在狀況糟糕時,會把自己的眼光限制在僅限於今天,盡量不去想過去跟未來的事,只要把今天過好就好了。靜坐冥想跟瑜伽也對於把我拉回當下很有幫助,我還會把每一天做了什麼事跟相對應的心情透過app記錄下來,讓我可以看到自己有哪一些trigger跟情緒的波動以及進步的幅度。
4. 有耐心,給予時間
我一直以來都是急性子,什麼事都想要用最有效率的方法完成。但是憂鬱症真的要慢慢恢復,就連憂鬱症的藥都是要服藥的大約一個月後才能感受到藥效。所以要有耐心,按照時間走必要的療程。尤其是在康復的路上不要急躁,帶著會慢慢好起來的希望,給自己的身體跟大腦時間恢復神經物質的平衡,找回自己的健康。
5. 找到生活中新的目標與成就感
最後,當你慢慢好起來,找回了一些動力跟精力後,我覺得就可以開始找尋生活中新的目標跟成就感了。我自己過去把大部分的成就感都架構在自己的工作上,但YouTuber的工作表現很大一部分是自己無法完全掌握的,所以這樣的成就感相當不穩定。我後來經過諮商師的建議找到了幾個其他比較穩定的成就感來源,像是煮飯、健身,讓自己可以在這些事物上感受到自己的進步也找到自我價值感,這對憂鬱症的恢復很有幫助。
雖然現在講的輕鬆,但在過去這幾個月我真的是在憂鬱症當中苦苦掙扎了很久,也經歷了很多很多事。今天的篇幅有限,先分享到這邊,希望這些資訊對大家有些幫助。
我知道今天做了這支影片可能會被媒體報導,被貼上標籤,或是有網友會說一些很難聽的話。不過我想要最後分享一個在那段期間發生的一件事。有一天我實在是好痛苦,哭問我爸說,我到底為什麼要承受這樣的辛苦,生來已經有異位性皮膚炎這個不能治好的疾病了,現在不只皮膚連腦子都病了。我爸回我說,他一直覺得我是活神農,因為有這些經歷,以後好起來才能夠幫助更多人。我當下只是覺得...
...幹你會不會安慰人!!!我都很痛苦了你還在跟我說要我去幫助其他人?
但是現在決定跟大家分享,是因為我爸說得對:如果因為我的這段經歷可以幫助有相同狀況的人好過一些、有希望一些,這一件事本身會賦予我的痛苦一些正面的意義。
最後,在這段時間我看了無數篇相關文章跟書籍,我會把我覺得對我幫助最大的內容放在影片的更多資訊欄。希望在憂鬱症掙扎的你可以從當中找到一些方向跟力量,學習與憂鬱症共存的方式。
》書籍推薦
脫憂鬱 https://www.books.com.tw/products/0010766841
憂鬱症自救手冊 https://www.books.com.tw/products/0010848801
禮悟 https://www.books.com.tw/products/0010833109
為自己活一次 https://www.books.com.tw/products/0010802223
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小鬱亂入粉專 https://www.facebook.com/depressytrouble/
憂鬱症真的可以好嗎 https://bit.ly/2VwHmX2
自我價值是什麼 https://bit.ly/3hCN7v3
憂鬱患者生活方針 https://bit.ly/2VA3tfn
放下找回當下 https://bit.ly/3r0r44t
如何原諒自己 https://bit.ly/3yKMB3z
低潮時的決策 https://bit.ly/2TXDtKi
》其他資源
社團法人臺灣憂鬱症防治協會 http://www.depression.org.tw/
衛生福利部安心專線 1925(依舊愛我)
生命線專線 1995 (要救救我)
張老師生命專線 1980(依舊幫你)
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閱讀前提醒小粉絲們,曾經當時我在美國時寫了很多關於那個加拿大人的抱怨文,哈哈,後來有人罵我,這不是可愛的狗狗貓貓專頁嗎,幹嘛寫這些東西讓人心情很差,又不是婚姻愛情版之類的等等云云。
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最近我除了搞公司的東西之外,我在慢慢設計明年虎年的桌曆,我有邀請阿培幫我畫一頁哈哈,他超努力練習的還用鉛筆畫好之後再用黑筆上色,真是個好阿培,阿培是我最好的兄弟,像西藏獒犬一樣的暖燙男人!
八月父親節部分,我會留給一個我的前輩畫(是一個我開始工作好幾年之後教我很多東西的老師),然後我再自己畫一點上去。
他大我好幾歲,我都叫他老爸,雖然我們沒有血緣關係但是我覺得他就像是我真正的老爸,他是超北爛的雙魚座,常常逼迫我聽很台的音樂,明明會打扮但是行為超級台客,還跟我說英文他都看不懂有時還要我幫他翻譯。
他是個善良的好人,也常常救路邊的昆蟲等等,我每次有什麼專業上的問題都會問他,他很強是我看過最強的2D ARTIST,我歐洲的同事和客戶都說他是大師,我跟他說了很多我沒跟其他人說的事情,他覺得我很可憐也很為我感到憤怒,我覺得他雖然很北爛,但是他好像才是我真正的老爸,總之明年的桌曆八月份會很漂亮,因為是我跟他一起畫的。
曾經有好幾次我朋友同事們跟我說,他們搜尋[寶總監]時,關鍵字會有[ 寶總監 父母 ],大家可能都很疑惑這麼多年來,怎麼從來看沒看到他們出現在我畫中,這邊我想說一個真實的故事:
很久以前,有一個小孩,周遭的人說,哇這個小孩額頭天庭飽滿,童年會過得很快樂很幸運,但這好像是騙人的。
這個孩子的父母在他五歲時離婚了,他的童年有一段很黑暗很痛苦的時期,從四歲開始吧,他的媽媽精神不太穩定,因為那個男人常常在房間裡揍她掐她,或是逼著她看成人影片,然後逼她做很噁心的事(那小孩為什麼會知道呢?因為當時他大概三四歲,在旁邊看著一切),這些事情同一個屋簷下的人都不知情,他們都以為全都是那個女人的問題,是她帶壞了男人,不是自己家人的問題,因為那個男人很會說謊,很會演戲。
在小孩五歲時,他們終於離婚了,女人離開了家,從此再也沒有跟孩子見面,雖然女人對小孩做了很多很可怕的事情,例如說,把小孩的頭壓到熱水裡要溺死他,或是勒著小孩的脖子然後對他沖冷水想殺死他(還好那時孩子的阿嬤把小孩抱著跑去急診,聽說已經臉色發紫了差點一命嗚呼),但小孩並不真正恨那個女人,因為小孩知道在黑暗的房間裡發生的殘忍的事情,不是每個人都能承受的,小孩長大後,在去美國工作前去戶政事務所拿了出生證明,發現女人再婚了,他沒有特別的感覺,只覺得,只要女人開心就好了,因為換成任何人,也會想逃的。
五歲到七歲,是那個小孩這輩子最黑暗的時刻,這兩年那男人給自己親生的孩子留下了好多治不好的後遺症,小孩耳朵右邊的耳咽管有裂痕,壓力大時右耳完全聽不見聲音,額頭有好多個疤痕,被頭髮蓋住了,小孩的嘴巴裡面兩側,有好幾個凸出來破掉然後癒合的疤痕,有些是用菸蒂燙出來的,有一些婦科的問題,有因為憋尿和壓力導致反覆感染造成的間質性膀胱炎等等。
那個小孩當時受到很大的傷害,他很瘦小,比同年紀一般孩子還小,因為常常被關在黑暗的房間裡,每天只吃一餐,小孩當時應該有自閉症,因為只要一出門看到陌生人就會尖叫大哭,讀幼稚園時也總是縮在角落,吃午餐吃一吃會吐出來然後開始哭,連幼稚園老師都不喜歡這個孩子,因為他們覺得他很麻煩。
整個家族裡,小孩最喜歡的是他的阿嬤,他的阿嬤常常跟那個男人吵架,在男人要打他時,阿嬤就擋在他面前保護他,那孩子從不曾告訴阿嬤這些骯髒的事,因為潛意識裡,他知道阿嬤會很難過很傷心,有次那個小孩很害怕的發抖跟阿嬤說,他不想再讓那個男人幫他洗澡了,結果阿嬤就跟那男人大吵了起來,那男人甚至要打阿嬤,沒錯,就是他自己的媽媽。
阿嬤以前常常問那個小孩,你怎麼長這麼小隻,你妹長那麼高,小孩沒說話,因為四歲到七歲的發育期,他每天被關在黑暗的房間裡只吃一餐的關係。
對於一個這麼小的小孩,並不知道怎麼求救,阿嬤好幾次對小孩說,你跟你媽長的很像,尤其是笑的時候,然後皮膚也很白,是整個家族裡皮膚最白的,跟他親生媽媽一樣。
於是從五歲到七歲直到那個男人再婚,他對自己的孩子做了很多骯髒不可原諒的事,很多你想到都會想嘔吐的事,他把離婚的憤怒發洩在親生的骨肉身上,小孩很害怕每天哭,哭了就被揍,只要尖叫就會被狂揍,嘴巴被塞東西,他被威脅不准講出去,於是他畫圖求救,把男人做的事畫了下來(他至今仍然記得他畫了什麼),小孩給其他家人看,希望她們能救救小孩,但是,其他家人看了什麼都沒說,也許是覺得很丟臉,不願意說出去。
從那一刻,那個小孩就知道,沒人可以幫助他,也了解,人類真的很骯髒很噁心,竟然對自己親生的骨肉幹出這種事,然後再死不承認裝沒事,這也是為什麼小孩長大之後有強烈潔癖的原因。
順帶一提,小孩有個妹妹,男人慾望來時也想對妹妹下手,是小孩每次都保護了妹妹,叫她趕快跑出房間。
那個小孩在經過這麼久的虐待之後,小小年紀的他精神上出現了一些問題,他會欺負自己的妹妹,要她跟他站在同一邊,或是用手或腳推她,這是這個小孩這輩子做過最惡劣的事情,但相較於這個孩子,妹妹過得很幸福,沒有受到那個男人的虐待和侵犯折磨,她甚至也忘記了小孩每次叫她趕快跑出去房間的事,她長大後不記得小孩每次都救了她,只記得小孩欺負她。
家人們都覺得小孩是個自閉的怪胎,瘦巴巴又蒼白,很陰沉話又少,很不討喜,不像妹妹那樣活潑快樂。
一個小孩在五歲到七歲之間就能感覺到強烈的恨意,如果當時有一把刀,相信他一定會毫不猶豫的往那男人的咽喉和心臟刺下去。
終於,七歲那年,男人再婚了,小孩終於不用再跟他一起睡同一個房間了,但那男人有時還是會說些很噁心的話或是做些很噁心的事情,於是不知道如何抒發壓力的孩子開始狂吃,從小學四年級開始發胖,他很高興的發現,那個男人不喜歡胖子,他對胖子沒興趣,這是當時那小孩唯一能保護自己的方法(後來是因為工作壓力才狂瘦下來)。
當小孩剛開始出社會工作時,男人開始跟他要錢,小孩那時的薪水很微薄很少,他心甘情願付房租給阿嬤,因為他住在阿嬤的樓上,但小孩付了男人幾個月的錢之後,每個月扣掉勞健保和飯錢以及手機電話費之後,實在是沒錢了,於是他傳訊息告訴男人,男人大發雷霆並說要親自找他理論,小孩不再回訊息,他很害怕,每次都把門鎖的緊緊的,雖然小孩已經長大了但他還是很害怕。
當小孩25歲時,在一次LINE群組的衝突裡,其他家人不諒解他,覺得你怎麼能對把你養大的人如此冷淡無情不孝順,於是他把一切說了出來,因為他當時已經吞了二十多年了,但當下,其他家人卻說,你要原諒他,他當時離婚壓力大,他很可憐,他其實是善良的好人,畢竟他也把你養大。
當下已經長大的小孩徹底明白,沒有任何人會站在他這邊,其他家人們對他很好,物質上常常給他和他養的狗食物和生活物品等等,但從未有人在那小孩真正需要時站在他身邊,小孩的阿嬤中風生病了,至少她一輩子不會知道真相,不會知道自己的兒子幹出這種事,不會傷心難過。
那再講到蓋亞出版社出版的[寶總監西行記] ,當時那個軟爛男被已經長大的小孩養了兩年,他出生於富裕的家庭,父母非常自私,一開始根本看不起那個只會畫圖做遊戲的小孩,直到他們知道那個小孩是作家,參加了幾次簽書會,看到很多粉絲,才改了嘴臉,開始炫耀。
當時其實那個小孩並不想跟任何人在一起,當時的他有好同事好公司,上班也很開心,但那軟爛的男人不停糾纏,最後甚至說[ 我會像狗一樣忠誠永遠跟你在一起 ] ,於是他便相信了那個軟爛人,開始照顧他,出所有的錢,過年過節準備禮物給那軟爛男的父母,從他當兵到出社會一直陪著他照顧他,但最後換來的卻是背叛。
分手後,小孩的家人站在軟爛男那邊,一個完全不相關的外人那邊,瘋狂的指責:你是不是自己也有問題!不然他為什麼會劈腿!你要檢討你自己!!
她們為什麼生氣呢?因為小孩毀掉了入豪門的機會嗎?
那一瞬間,小孩徹底絕望了,他能理解華人社會中親情的重要性,也能理解為何當初家人們幫那男人說話是因為血親關係,但完全不能理解,為何家人們全站在一個背叛傷害他的外人身邊,槍口對著他狂轟,他明白,這世界上唯一能相信的只有狗,還有自己。
隔沒多久,他遇見了在美國當教授的加拿大人,當時他覺得,這個人站在我這邊,只有他站在我這邊,於是他放棄了在台灣的工作和一切,帶著狗飛去了美國。
一開始都好好的,但好景不常,加拿大人的教授研究失敗了,他有亞斯伯格症,最後爆發的很嚴重,小孩吞忍著,每天吃藥精神上都很痛苦,還要忍受對方媽媽的歧視以及冷嘲熱諷,說是為了綠卡才到美國的。
終於有一天,在一次爭吵過後,加拿大人把那小孩的行李全扔出門外時,小孩再也忍受不了了,他真的累了,於是他拿了最銳利的刀往左手腕用力垂直一劃,當下血流如注,加拿大人報警,最後小孩在醫院被關了六天,在一張小小的床上發抖,上廁所不能關門,洗澡還要卑微的求他們,因為加拿大人並沒把他加入健保,所以美國醫院的人把他當遊民一樣對待,順序排在最後面,沒吃身心科的藥發作的他傳訊息給他的表弟,說他好害怕,問表弟其他家人有說什麼嗎?表弟回答他:[ 她們說再看看 ],於是他不再多問。
總之,最後小孩再也受不了了,他發著高燒(當時還沒有COVID-19)獨自一人回到了台灣,自己和另外養的一條獒犬在小小的套房住了好一陣子。
所有的家人都裝作沒事,他們在小孩去美國前把他的東西全扔了,畫冊漫畫,小孩養的盆栽和超大幅的油畫,還有兩把珍貴的小提琴(小孩用自己存下來的錢辛苦買的),但小孩什麼都沒說什麼都沒問。
他知道家人們照顧中風的阿嬤壓力很大很辛苦,他努力住的離阿嬤近一點(最後就住在隔壁),淡水到內湖和信義區很遠,一天的通勤時間就要三個多小時,他常常在捷運上站著睡覺,有時還睡過頭趕不上會議要一直低頭道歉,但他從來沒有抱怨過。
而因為經歷過這麼多事,那小孩的個性並不活潑,在家不太說話,不是那種會帶給家人們快樂的人,但任何事只要家人要求的,他一定會努力做到,以前的生日或是母親節,他總是買最好的,還曾經一次給了阿嬤五萬塊,讓阿嬤都哭了,阿嬤那時的表情,他現在都還記得,但他並不是那種真的會一直很嗨很快樂的人,也許是因為這樣,其他家人們並不是那麼喜歡他。
這個小孩很討厭念書,以前小學剛開始學英文時,他並不知道英文之間要分開來一段一段,所以字母都黏在一起,那個男人在他之後娶的老婆面前,把作業簿往小孩的頭上砸,說小孩是白癡,小孩額頭流血了,但他什麼都沒說也沒哭,這讓他更不想念書了。
但並不是他不會念,只是他很抗拒不想被逼迫,家人們都很會念書,法律界銀行業,是通俗來說社會上有頭有臉的行業,他國中時學測考得非常爛,當時坐在餐桌準備第二次考試時,除了他的阿嬤之外,其他人對他露出的表情,表現的樣子,他一輩子不會忘記。
阿嬤常常拿著小孩畫的圖去跟牌友們炫耀,還說要裱框起來,學測考爛之後,阿嬤甚至問小孩,啊你不喜歡念書,要不要阿嬤現在幫你找工作,不想念就不要念了。
小孩覺得,在這個家他應該是最沒用,最沒出息的,除了他阿嬤之外,其他人都覺得他只會畫圖會餓死街頭,即使他後來拼命拿到了TOEIC的金色證書,他的家人也沒說什麼,可能覺得英文好也不代表你會賺錢吧。
於是,他決定不想繼續在別人底下做事了,他開始瘋狂的工作,接歐洲和美國的外包,每天到凌晨三四點多才睡,六點半起床遛狗,然後再去信義區的辦公室上班,日復一日,因為他想證明他不是沒用沒出息的人,不是一定要會念書才能得到世人所謂的成功。
當他開始幫歐洲公司做事時,家人對他說他假裝自己是歐洲人,趕快帶著臭狗去歐洲吧,以後房子不用留給你了,這真的是讓人很不舒服的玩笑,而之前家人甚至說起那個加拿大人,要他趕快複合然後飛回美國,雖然他每次都沒說話,但這對他是很痛的打擊,他的家人知道,他從美國回台灣之後獨自一人在小套房發抖,去婦產科拿掉了孩子,在美國自殺等等之類的事,家人們看過那本書西行記,任何一個有同理心的人都不應該開這種玩笑。
有一次,他工作壓力大昏倒在地上爬不起來,憂鬱症和自律神經失調發作,那種瞬間斷線的感覺,好像突然沒電一樣完全沒力氣只能發抖,於是他倒在地上,家人們覺得他是假裝的,開始罵他。
[ 每次一直說自己有病 ] ,[ 要躺回你自己那邊去躺 ] ,[你夠了沒有,給我起來喔] ,[ XXX(名字) 你再不起來我們直接叫救護車送你去醫院,搞什麼 ],[ 起來啦,你嚇到你阿嬤了,到底在幹嘛 ],最後,只有阿嬤的看護安那把他抱起來,因為他生的病並不是外在能夠看見的病,並不是斷手斷腳,而是內在真的生病了,他並不願意有這些看不見的毛病,因為大家都以為他是裝的,他寧願斷一條腿或斷一隻手,至少別人會知道,啊,他是真的生病了。
小孩那時哭的一蹋糊塗,他聽見已經失智的阿嬤在叫他,但阿嬤再也沒辦法跟他正常的說話,也不會再站在他這邊,他覺得好寂寞。
小孩長大了,他去年十二月飛去了歐洲一個月簽約和設置辦公室,回來之後過年他和狗一起在家隔離了兩周,今年四月他帶著陪伴了他十多年的狗飛去了北歐開了公司。
很多人一定覺得他很無情吧,丟下家人自己跑去國外,但是他去年十二月在歐洲時接到了他表弟的電話,表弟說家人叫他不准回去,要他去住防疫旅館(很貴 但小孩身上根本沒那麼多錢),說他身上有病毒會傳染給其他人(小孩只是住隔壁而已,並沒有跟她們住在一起),還說要報警抓他,於是小孩完全死心了,沒什麼好留戀的。
他一月多回國隔離完,直到飛去歐洲的四月初期間,他連阿嬤都沒去看,即使測試結果出來是陰性的,即使隔離兩周沒有症狀,但都能說出那種話了,應該也不會有人相信他。
另外,他從來不缺男人追求,但他不是跟童年時那個虐待他的垃圾一樣,沒女人幹會死,他的生活很簡單,不抽菸不喝酒,從未去過CLUB和PUB以及BAR,他都跟狗窩在家裡畫圖看漫畫,看看YOUTUBE的DISCOVERY和TLC還有ANIAMAL PLANT,偶爾看看小說和一些文章,還有FB的狗社團。
家人們說話很難聽,說他沒男人會死,說他缺男人,換男人速度很快,老實說,如果他真的要換男人速度很快,那就不會每任都在一起至少兩年到五年,如果家人都不支持他,不站在他這邊,那找個會支持他的伴侶,他並不覺得這有什麼錯,現在他甚至認為有沒有都沒關係,有狗有事業就好,尤其是可以保護他的大狗。
以前曾經讀過孟子的[ 人禽之辯 ] ,裡面說:人之所以異於禽獸者幾希,庶民去之,君子存之。
以道德價值區分人類與非人類的立場,如果人類沒有了道德良心,那雖名為人,但實無以異於禽獸。
惻隱之心,人皆有之;羞惡之心,人皆有之;恭敬之心,人皆有之;是非之心,人皆有之。惻隱之心,仁也;羞惡之心,義也;恭敬之心,禮也;是非之心,智也。仁、義、禮、智,非由外鑠我也,我固有之也,弗思耳矣!
故曰:「求則得之,舍則失之。」或相倍蓗而無算者,不能盡其才者也。(《孟子•告子上•6》)
反過來說「無惻隱之心,非人也;無羞惡之心,非人也;無辭讓之心,非人也;無是非之心,非人也」。
十惡不赦、不具道德意識的人類,這些惡人,「名雖為人,而實無以異於禽獸」,甚至不配稱為人類(「非人」)。
所以常常有人對受傷害的人說,放下,原諒,你才會解脫,說的很簡單。
人之所以為人不為神,沒有人有資格對受害者說這種話,好像有個人捅了你好幾刀虐待你,你的傷口流血結痂,疤痕依然在那,那人說我之後會對你很好的,但是有些傷口是一輩子不會癒合的,所以任何人都沒有資格強求人放下,放開,以及原諒。
那個小孩在美國和台灣期間看了好多心理諮商師,有次他找了一個基督徒的諮商師,講到最後,諮商師只淡淡地問了他一句:
上帝愛祂的孩子,祂看到你現在這樣受苦,你覺得祂不會心痛嗎?
「我應該要原諒那個傷害我的人嗎?」
應該問,無論你選擇原諒或不原諒,那就是你的自由,你是否有辦法接受原諒對方後的自己,甚至原諒這樣的自己?
故事到了尾聲,那個孩子永遠不會原諒傷害他的人,但他也不會選擇報復,或是花錢找人讓他斷手斷腳,因為他是基督徒他不想下地獄,他還想去彩虹橋看他的暖男獒犬,他現在只在乎在乎他的人,然後為了自己和狗繼續向前走。
這就是這個小小的真實的故事的結尾。
真抱歉打了這麼多,希望大家看了不要覺得很阿炸,明天會有米克斯人類快樂的系列的。
英文閱讀速度太慢 在 QQmei Facebook 八卦
小QQ在英國上學,大家都很關心她的中文要怎麼學?!
其實她中文的「聽」跟「說」我並不會太擔心,因為回到家之後,我和DDC都是跟她說中文,所以她說的國語超道地超台的啊 XD 但是,對於生長在全英文教育環境的她來說,比較困難的就是中文閱讀跟寫字了。
現階段,我是讓QQ先學會注音。從認注音符號,到現在的注音拼音,我透過從台灣帶過來的幾本教材,一點一滴慢慢教小QQ。很有成就感的是,成效還滿不錯的。女兒現在已經學會所有的拼音,她也開始有能力自行閱讀中文繪本(但是跟外文書比起來,閱讀速度慢很多就是了)
對我來說,僅管孩子在英國受教育,但絕不能忘本,中文絕對不能忘。希望未來的我要繼續充滿動力,當個小QQ最盡責的中文老師。
#亮點是最後一句 😆
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速讀重點: 5:10
如果你是一個上班族、大學生、或是考研究所看論文都需要具備的核心技能
其中我最無法跨越的是大概速度衝到3000字左右就有點瓶頸上不去,其實我平常再練也有到5000字以上的速讀,不過每篇文章會有所不同,有些比較有相關經驗的文章閱讀速度就可以再拉高,比較陌生的文章會再慢些
很多人問速讀是不是同樣可以適用於英文,答案是可以,關鍵是你單字都看得懂,你一樣可以用速讀的技巧快速英文閱讀
這次挑戰真的是太有趣了,如果早點學,不知道之前考試會不會多看到幾題,多拿一些分哈哈
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英文閱讀速度太慢 在 [問題]英文閱讀的壞習慣 的八卦
各位好小弟我讀英文時有壞習慣就是會很想越快看完越好導致常常都不知道到看了啥問過老師 ... 想要一直飆飆飆到最後閱讀直接爆炸各位都怎麼穩穩看且速度不會太慢的方法感謝! ... <看更多>
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嗨~語言板卡友們好!我是開喜Cathy,彭湘平。接下來會每週和大家分享英文學習的技巧。以下和大家分享讀「雪球速度法」一書之後應用在加快英文閱讀的 ... ... <看更多>
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一位剛從碩班畢業的政大學長之前丟給我一篇資料,講述如何增加英文閱讀。
跟我之前念的工具書結合後受益不少,
趁著一點時間把它翻譯出來,方便自己練習。 (末段有簡要的中文翻譯)
傳聞如果你願意耐著性子讀完並把這些技巧應用在此篇資料上,你的英文閱讀速度就已經
實質進步了。
本文譯者為中山學生,發文IP為117,露兩點中山點,謝謝手下留情。
原文如下
Tips for Increasing Reading Speed
As our eyes move across the page they make a series of jerky movements.
Whenever they come to rest on a word that is called a fixation. Most people
fixate once on each word across a line of print. In order to make our speed
increase we must take in more words with each fixation, rather than make our
eyes move faster.
1. Try to avoid focusing on every word, but rather look at groups of 2 to 3
words. For instance, this sentence could be grouped in this manner:
for instance / this sentence / could be grouped / in this manner '
2. Work on vocabulary improvement. Familiarize yourself with new words so you
don't get stuck on them when you read them again.
3. Read more! 15 minutes a day of reading an average size novel equals 18
books a year at an average reading speed!
4.Determine your purpose before reading. If you only need main ideas, then
allow yourself to skim the material. Don't feel you must read very word.
5.Spend a few minutes a day reading at a faster than comfortable rate (about
2 to 3 times faster than your normal speed). Use your hand or an index card
to guide your eyes down the page. Then time yourself reading a few pages at
your normal speed. You'll find that often your normal reading speed will
increase after your skimming practice.
6. If you have poor concentration when reading, practice reading for only 5 -
10 minutes at a time and gradually increase this time.
7.There are several books on increasing reading speed available in most
bookstores. If you are serious about increasing your rate you may want to
work systematically through one of these books
SUGGESTIONS FOR IMPROVING READING SPEED
Improvement of Reading Rate
It is safe to say that almost anyone can double his speed of reading while
maintaining equal or even higher comprehension. In other words, anyone can
improve the speed with which he gets what he wants from his reading.
The average college student reads between 250 and 350 words per minute on
fiction and non-technical materials. A "good" reading speed is around 500 to
700 words per minute, but some people can read a thousand words per minute or
even faster on these materials. What makes the difference? There are three
main factors involved in improving reading speed: (1) the desire to improve,
(2) the willingness to try new techniques and (3) the motivation to practice.
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Learning to read rapidly and well presupposes that you have the necessary
vocabulary and comprehension skills. When you have advanced on the reading
comprehension materials to a level at which you can understand college-level
materials, you will be ready to speed reading practice in earnest.
The Role of Speed in the Reading Process
Understanding the role of speed in the reading process is essential. Research
has shown a close relation between speed and understanding. For example, in
checking progress charts of thousands of individuals taking reading training,
it has been found in most cases that an increase in rate has been paralleled
by an increase in comprehension, and that where rate has gone down,
comprehension has also decreased.
Although there is at present little statistical evidence, it seems that
plodding word-by-word analysis (or word reading) inhibits understanding.
There is some reason to believe that the factors producing slow reading are
also involved in lowered comprehension. Most adults are able to increase
their rate of reading considerably and rather quickly without lowering
comprehension. These same individuals seldom show an increase in
comprehension when they reduce their rate. In other cases, comprehension is
actually better at higher rates of speed. Such results, of course, are
heavily dependent upon the method used to gain the increased rate. Simply
reading more rapidly without actual improvement in basic reading habits
usually results in lowered comprehension.
Factors that Reduce Reading Rate
Some of the facts which reduce reading rate: (a) limited perceptual span
i.e., word-by-word reading; (b) slow perceptual reaction time, i.e., slowness
of recognition and response to the material; (c) vocalization, including the
need to vocalize in order to achieve comprehension; (d) faulty eye movements,
including inaccuracy in placement of the page, in return sweep, in rhythm and
regularity of movement, etc.; (e) regression, both habitual and as associated
with habits of concentration; (f) faulty habits of attention and
concentration, beginning with simple inattention during the reading act and
faulty processes of retention; (g) lack of practice in reading, due simply to
the fact that the person has read very little and has limited reading
interests so that very little reading is practiced in the daily or weekly
schedule; (h) fear of losing comprehension, causing the person to suppress
his rate deliberately in the firm belief that comprehension is improved if he
spends more time on the individual words; (i) habitual slow reading, in which
the person cannot read faster because he has always read slowly, (j) poor
evaluation of which aspects are important and which are unimportant; and (k)
the effort to remember everything rather than to remember selectively.
Since these conditions act also to reduce comprehension increasing the
reading rate through eliminating them is likely to result in increased
comprehension as well. This is an entirely different matter from simply
speeding up the rate of reading without reference to the conditions
responsible for the slow rate. In fact, simply speeding the rate especially
through forced acceleration, may actually result, and often does, in making
the real reading problem more severe. In addition, forced acceleration may
even destroy confidence in ability to read. The obvious solution then is to
increase rate as a part of a total improvement of the whole reading process.
This is a function of special training programs in reading.
Basic Conditions for Increased Reading Rate
A well planned program prepares for maximum increase in rate by establishing
the necessary conditions. Four basic conditions include:
1. Have your eyes checked. Before embarking on a speed reading program, make
sure that any correctable eye defects you may have are taken care of by
checking with your eye doctor. Often, very slow reading is related to
uncorrected eye defects.
2. Eliminate the habit of pronouncing words as you read. If you sound out
words in your throat or whisper them, you can read slightly only as fast as
you can read aloud. You should be able to read most materials at least two or
three times faster silently than orally. If you are aware of sounding or
"hearing" words as you read, try to concentrate on key words and meaningful
ideas as you force yourself to read faster.
3. Avoid regressing (rereading). The average student reading at 250 words per
minute regresses or rereads about 20 times per page. Rereading words and
phrases is a habit which will slow your reading speed down to a snail's pace.
Usually, it is unnecessary to reread words, for the ideas you want are
explained and elaborated more fully in later contexts. Furthermore, the
slowest reader usually regresses most frequently. Because he reads slowly,
his mind has time to wander and his rereading reflects both his inability to
concentrate and his lack of confidence in his comprehension skills.
4. Develop a wider eye-span. This will help you read more than one word at a
glance. Since written material is less meaningful if read word by word, this
will help you learn to read by phrases or thought units.
Rate Adjustment
Poor results are inevitable if the reader attempts to use the same rate
indiscriminately for a-1 types of material and for all reading purposes. He
must learn to adjust his rate to his purpose in reading and to the difficulty
of the material he is reading. This ranges from a maximum rate on easy,
familiar, interesting material or in reading to gather information on a
particular point, to minimal rate on material which is unfamiliar in content
and language structure or which must be thoroughly digested. The effective
reader adjusts his rate; the ineffective reader uses the same rate for all
types of material.
Rate adjustment may be overall adjustment to the article as a whole, or
internal adjustment within the article. Overall adjustment establishes the
basic rate at which the total article is read; internal adjustment involves
the necessary variations in rate for each varied part of the material. As an
analogy, you plan to take a 100-mile mountain trip. Since this will be a
relatively hard drive with hills, curves, and a mountain pass, you decide to
take three hours for the total trip, averaging about 35 miles an hour. This
is your overall rate adjustment. However, in actual driving you may slow down
to no more than 15 miles per hour on some curves and hills, while speeding up
to 50 miles per hour or more on relatively straight and level sections. This
is your internal rate adjustment. There is no set rate, therefore, which the
good reader follows inflexibly in reading a particular selection, even though
he has set himself an overall rate for the total job.
Overall rate adjustment should be based on your reading plan, your reading
purpose, and the nature and difficulty of the material. The reading plan
itself should specify the general rate to be used. This is based on the total
"size up". It may be helpful to consider examples of how purpose can act to
help determine the rate to be used. To understand information, skim or scan
at a rapid rate. To determine value of material or to read for enjoyment,
read rapidly or slowly according to you feeling. To read analytically, read
at a moderate pace to permit interrelating ideas. The nature and difficulty
of the material requires an adjustment in rate in conformity with your
ability to handle that type of material. Obviously, level of difficulty is
highly relative to the particular reader. While Einstein's theories may be
extremely difficult to most laymen, they may be very simple and clear to a
professor of physics. Hence, the layman and the physics professor must make a
different rate adjustment in reading the same material. Generally, difficult
material will entail a slower rate; simpler material will permit a faster
rate.
Internal rate adjustment involves selecting differing rates for parts of a
given article. In general, decrease speed when you find the following (1)
unfamiliar terminology not clear in context. Try to understand it in context
at that point; otherwise, read on and return to it later; (2) difficult
sentence and paragraph structure; slow down enough to enable you to untangle
them and get accurate context for the passage; (3) unfamiliar or abstract
concepts. Look for applications or examples of you own as well as studying
those of the writer. Take enough time to get them clearly in mind; (4)
detailed, technical material. This includes complicated directions,
statements of difficult principles, materials on which you have scant
background; (5) material on which you want detailed retention.
In general, increase speed when you meet the following: (a) simple material
with few ideas which are new to you; move rapidly over the familiar ones;
spend most of your time on the unfamiliar ideas; (b) unnecessary examples and
illustrations. Since these are included to clarify ideas, move over them
rapidly when they are not needed; (c) detailed explanation and idea
elaboration which you do not need, (d) broad, generalized ideas and ideas
which are restatements of previous ones. These can be readily grasped, even
with scan techniques.
In keeping your reading attack flexible, adjust your rate sensitivity from
article to article. It is equally important to adjust you rate within a given
article. Practice these techniques until a flexible reading rate becomes
second nature to you.
Summary
In summary, evidence has been cited which seems to indicate a need for and
value of a rapid rate of reading, while at the same time indicating the
dangers of speed in reading, as such.We have attempted to point out the
relationship between rate of reading and extent of comprehension, as well as
the necessity for adjustment of reading rate, along with whole reading
attack, to the type of material and the purposes of the reader.
Finally, the factors which reduce rate were surveyed as a basis for pointing
out that increase in rate should come in conjunction with the elimination of
these retarding aspects of the reading process and as a part of an overall
reading training program where increase in rate is carefully prepared for in
the training sequence.
TIPS FOR IMPROVING YOUR READING SPEED
The purpose of this section is to teach you how to increase you reading
speed. Shortly we will be adding a section for reading BETTER as opposed to
FASTER.
We all have a capacity for reading much faster than we typically do. Our
reading speed changes as we go through life. When we are in high school, we
go through about two hundred words a minute. We get to college and, because
we have to read faster due to more time constraints and a much greater amount
to read, we read faster. Most people in college average about 400 words per
minute. Then we get out of college, and now we don't have to read so fast.
There are no longer time constraints, and we can read slow and easy. We find
ourselves dropping back down to about 200 words per minute.
Think of reading like you do a muscle, the more you read, the better you get
at it, the faster you're going to read. And we have a great capacity for
reading faster. We aren't even scraping the surface of how fast we can read.
You see, we have 1,000,000,000,000 brain cells. In fact, the inner
connections, the synapses, in our mind are virtually infinite. It has been
estimated by a Russian scientist that the number of synapses we have would be
one followed by 10 million kilometers of zeros. Our physical capacity for
reading is beyond our comprehension. Our visual unit has the capability to
take in a full page of text in 1/20 of a second. If we could turn the pages
fast enough, our brain could process it faster than our eyes can see it. If
we could turn those pages fast enough, our eyes have the capacity to read a
standard book in six to twenty-five seconds depending on the length of the
book. We could take in the entire Encyclopedia Britannica in one hour. So
reading 700 - 1,000 words a minute is easily within our reach.
The key to improving our speed is to SIGHT READ, and that's what we are going
to show you how to do. We are going to start being pure sight readers.
Obstacles get in our way, however. What do we mean by obstacles? Well, these
are things that impede us from reading faster.
REGRESSIONS are the most wasteful. Regressions are going back over words. You
can call it back-skipping if you want. You go back over words you previously
read. People do it for two reasons. Initially we read it to clarify the
meaning of what we're reading. We want to be sure of the words we read as we
go along. In our early years in school, when we were first taught -
incorrectly - to "read slowly and carefully," it became easy to go back over
words.
Well, this not only slows you down, it causes you comprehension problems. For
instance, let’s say you have a sentence, "The man jumped over the log."
Well, if you back-skip, you read that passage like this: "The man jumped,"
"the man . . . jumped. . . over the log," "jumped over the log." So, what
your brain is processing, "The man jumped," "the man jumped," "jumped over
the log." Our brain is used to processing our flaws, so the brain thinks,
"OK, I know what this clown is saying, "The man jumped over the log." But
this takes time to sort out. And it's confusing. Think how much easier it
would be if you simply took the sentence in one sight, "The man jumped over
the log." There's no confusion there. Then you move on to the next phrase.
Regressing or back-skipping is the most harmful thing we do to slow our
reading speed.
Our second obstacle is that we have BAD HABITS that we pick up. Bad habits
manifest themselves in a number of ways. For one, you've got people who have
MOTOR habits as they read. These are the people who are tapping a pencil when
they read, tapping a foot when they read, moving a book, flicking their hand,
etc. If they're sitting next to you, they drive you nuts. But they are the
people who have to be moving while they read.
Some may even move their lips. If they do that, they're kind of edging over
into another bad habit where we find AUDITORY readers. This is the bad habit
that we have that is the hardest to drop. Auditory reading is difficult to
beat because we are used to reading and hearing the words in our minds. Some
people even go so far as to mumble the words. You can see their lips moving
sometimes, or you can even hear a guttural growl as they go through the words.
The other obstacle are the FIXATIONS. Fixations are the actual stops or
pauses between eye-spans when the eye is moving to its next fixation point.
We can't see while the eye moves so you do need the fixation points to see.
The problem is, most people fixate word by word by word. They stop their eyes
on each separate word. The fixations slow you down because you are stopping
on each word. )
The problem that comes up here is this that, like the other obstacles, it
impedes concentration and comprehension as well. The paradox with reading
slowly is that it really hurts your concentration.
Research has shown a close relation between speed and understanding. In
checking progress charts of thousands of individuals taking reading training,
its been found that in the vast majority of cases, that an increase in speed
reading rate has also been paralleled by an increase in comprehension. The
plodding word by word analyzation actually reduces comprehension.
In this day and age, our brains are used to constant stimulation. Television,
radio, even people talking to you, provide constant stimulation. So when we
are reading along slowly and carefully, it's kind of like watching a movie
and we encounter a slow motion scene. The slow motion scene is kind of
interesting at first because the movie has been moving along at a rapid clip
and now we have a change of pace. We've got the slow motion scene of the guy
getting shot or the couple running across to each other across a field, and
the mind initially says, "Oh, this is cool. This is something different."
After a while we get a little impatient and we're ready for the guy who got
shot to hit the ground, or the couple who are running across the field to
finally get to each other. We start thinking about other things..we’ve lost
our focus on the movie.
The brain does the same thing when we read. The brain is getting all the
stimulation it normally gets, then we hit this patch where you're reading
slowly. And boom, the brain says, "I don't like this. I think I'm going to
start thinking about something else." And the reader starts thinking about
the date they had Saturday night or the date they hope to have Saturday
night. And therefore, you've got another impediment to comprehending the
reading correctly.
OK, what do we do? Well, there are several things we are going to do to
increase reading speed. First of all. we are going to increase the EYE SPAN.
Eye span is the number of words that you take in as you look at the words. In
other words, if my eye span is just one word, I am going to move from word to
word to word. If my eye span is two words, I am going to move along twice as
fast. If my eye span is three words, three times as fast. If I am moving
along in phrases, I'm flying along pretty good.
That's where you increase the rate of eye span. You also want to learn to
work in THOUGHT UNITS. Thought units help you move faster. This is where you
group the words according to context. For instance, let’s say you have, "He
said something." It's easy to put that in a phrase, then you move to the next
phrase. If I had this sentence, "It's safe to say that almost anyone can
double his speed of reading while maintaining equal or higher comprehension."
If I want to read that in phrases, "It's safe to say that almost
anyone.......can double his speed........of reading while
maintaining.......equal or even higher comprehension." You move much faster
that way.
So, we are going to increase the number of words we see and we are going to
group them according to context. One of the key things that we are also going
to work on is RETURN EYE SWEEP. When you get to the end of the sentence or
the end of the line on the written page, if your eye meanders back to the
other side, you have a chance to pick up words. If you're picking up words
and you're sight reading, that can be confusing. So you want to dramatically,
quickly, forcefully, go from the end of one line to the beginning of the next
one. Using a fingertip or pen as a pointer is a great way to quickly and
directly to the next line.
The other thing that helps us increase our speed is CONFIGURATION. As you
read faster and faster, you've got to learn to rely on your increased
recognition of how words are configured, how they look, as you do it. In
other words, "material" looks different than "response". "Recognition" looks
different than "perceptual". The words have visual configurations. As you
learn to read faster and faster you learn to pick up on the configurations
and, as you do better and better, your skills at this improve with practice.
So, we are going to have no REGRESSIONS, no VOCALIZATIONS, and increased EYE
SPAN. That's the way to true sight reading. How do we do this?
First, we avoid the problem areas. We avoid the limited eye-span by expanding
the number of words that we take in. We get rid of regressions and we get rid
of the return eye sweep problem by using a pointer. You can use a pen, a
pencil, even your finger. That gives you a point of focus for your eyes. It
helps you focus on the page, and you move faster because you can dictate how
fast you are moving across the page. Your eye will follow your finger, or
pen, or pencil.
Absolutely stay away from the vocalizations. You have got to be a sight
reader. You have got to read fast enough so that you don't have time to hear
the words. This way you are comprehending simply with your eyes.
You also need to keep in mind that you don't always read at the same speed.
If you've got a car that will go 120 miles per hour, you're not going to
drive that care 120 miles per hour in a shopping center. You'd get killed and
get a heck of a ticket. But you may, on a highway when you are passing a car,
get it up to a high speed. When you are in that shopping center, you are
going to be driving about 30 miles per hour.
It's the same thing with reading. This is specifically addressed in our
Better Reading section. But you must learn that you speed read in certain
areas and there are other areas that may be particularly dense, that may have
something that's particularly confusing to you, when you will need to slow
down and read in shorter phrases, smaller groupings of words so that you can
comprehend it clearly. It may be a particularly dense passage where each word
has great deal of meaning. It may be even an unusual or specific word.
Let's look at what we've got to do to practice it. The big step here is to
simply read faster. It sounds like such a simple statement, it almost sounds
stupid. But it's what you have to do. You have to focus on "I'm going to read
faster," first.
Comprehension comes later. Practice reading without a great concern for
comprehension. In clinical terms, we call this the comprehension lag. It
takes the mind as many as ten to fifteen days to adapt to the new reading
rate.
You are going to go through periods, practice periods, you can't use on
school books, but it's a practice period where you are simply adapting to
reading that much faster. Comprehension lags for a while but when it catches
up it makes a stunning difference.
A good place to practice this is magazines or newspapers. They have narrow
columns that almost make a perfect thought unit. You can almost go straight
down the column, taking that finger and puttting it in the middle of the
column and moving it straight down the page. You will be stunned how soon you
will be able to improve and comprehend what you are reading
that way. You find that it's quick. It's easy reading.
中文翻譯:
增加閱讀速度的小撇步
1.集中在片語或是短句子,不要浪費時間在單字上。
2.增加自己的單字能力。
3.找時間多讀! 每天15分鐘的閱讀=一年多了十八本書的閱讀量,自然增加速度
4.閱讀前確定此次閱讀的目標,如果只是想抓到核心想法,就不要在每個單字上繞圈圈。
5.每天幾次的快速閱讀,再去體會自己的正常閱讀速度。通常讀速是從正常閱讀的方面進
步。
6.如果很難集中心神閱讀,先試著一次5-10分鐘的閱讀方法,再慢慢增加。
7.系統性地閱讀。
有關增加閱讀速度的建議:
1.想改進的慾望2.對於學習新技巧的熱誠3.是否有練習的動機
掌握片語與理解可以提升速度。提升速度必須是全面去更進的,否則可能摧毀信心。
I 確認雙眼健康。
II 改變閱讀必須發聲的習慣
III 避免重新閱讀(倒退念)
IIII 把眼睛看到的視界擴大
速度調整:
1.隨著閱讀素材不同調整自己的速率。
2.閱讀速度的設定依據你的閱讀,計畫,預計目標與閱讀素材的特性而定。
3.閱讀素材的特性設定按照個人喜好有所不同。
4.如果是分析式的讀法,請慢慢讀。總體而言,難讀的東西肯定讓你的速度變慢,簡單的
就會變快。
只有發現下面這些情況時,你才需要放慢速度:
1.文本或是專業術語不清楚,當下讀不通時,先放著再回頭讀。
2.難懂的句子或文法,這就必須要在當下先弄懂。
3.遇到不熟悉或抽象的概念,從作者背景資料下手會比較輕鬆。(這邊一定要花時間弄懂
他)
4.細節,技術性的閱讀片段-複雜的方向或比較的資料,或是你個人的學科背景不足時。
5.你想要精讀時。
甚麼時候該提升速度?
a.遇到你已知的概念時,你就該把時間放在不熟悉的地方
b.遇到沒有必要的舉例,尤其在這些例子有著清楚的概念隱含其中時
c.你不需要知道的特地解釋或是概念論述時
d.已知的,通識的概念甚至可以用掃描的速度瞄過即可(當然要留下印象。)
請持續以上技巧,直到你能嫻熟地運用於確實的閱讀上。
學習的場域可以讓你維持最佳閱讀速度。閱讀就跟健身一樣需要練習。
如何再次增進閱讀速度:
1.不要回讀。 回讀只在兩個情況下發生:
(1).要更精細知道在說甚麼;(2).我們想要跟上整體脈絡
2.不要抖腳等閱讀壞習慣,甚至不要唸出聲音來。
3.不要在單字上停住
4.增開眼睛視野,讓字不要停斷,字一旦停下,思緒就會跟著停下。
5.用筆(跟著閱讀)並註記每個段落
-->這個我持保留意見,原文應該是說不要讓雙手停下,但我看到的另外一份資料是用筆
一個一個點會拖慢速度。
6.千萬不要用念出聲音的方式去閱讀
7.永遠記得不要用統一速率閱讀
8.遇到繁瑣的部分,請先將大單位畫為小單位,功效較佳。
整體練習重點先擺在閱讀速度提升,其次才是懂片語使用。
所以學校教科書並不適用這類練習,請去翻閱雜誌或報紙,有些時候讀專欄更好。
持續練習你就會發現你讀得愈來愈快,愈能掌握書中要點。
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