My quiet contemplation
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2017 was a year of extreme highs and lows just like the Uranus influence on me.More than anything,its the internal forces that demonize ;often a projection from external ones.
Load it off I gotta And so I sat.Most days.From deep reflection-just sitting and dealing with my s*** felt like I was all alone,walking through a storm-anger,dissapointment,guilt,shame,resentment, sadness.I cried.Deep and long.Why do I even give a f***? Or shall I not give a f***?
The pain.And then,rising from my faculty-no warning, no control, its like my mind seeking,as if trying to comfort,trying to protect-like a Mother to Child-the happinesses (is there such a word??) The material.The little comforts.The non-material.The little joys.The little loves.The sum of it all-rising within me,expanding ,lifting me-to accept il never be ready,il never be prepared for what is to come,only I will survive,stronger,each time-I will not sacrifice myself or settle for any less.I open my heart and breathe in winds of change in the beauty of this transformation.A blessing! And I find my hands full and mind lighter, clearer.
I am not trying to tackle world hunger,turn the world green or stop a war. Not painting you a picture perfect life here cuz there is no such thing.I just CHOOSE to interpret the events in my life and accept my VULNERABILITY.BUT,I have ancient god dramas running in my veins that infulence me now and I WILL be responsible for who I am.
Its f****** MAGICK. ✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨
Hello #2018
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