Salam kak... maaf ganggu... berguguran air mata saya masa tengah msg ni... biarlah semua pandang saya dalam lrt ni. =(
Akak tahu saya jenis yang bertolak ansur kan... tapi kali ni saya tak mampu sangat kak =( Selama bulan puasa ni saya terkejar kejar seorang diri.. balik kerja.. hantar & ambil anak.... masak untuk berbuka puasa... masih menyusu walaupun kandungan dah 7 bulan.
Semalam saya terlalu terasa dengan suami bila saya tengah berebut nak masak anak menangis, saya mi...
Continue ReadingGreetings sis... sorry to disturb... my tears fall in the middle of the message... let everyone look at me in this LRT. =(
I know I'm the type of tolerance right... but this time I can't afford it too much sis =(during this fasting month I'm chasing myself.. back from work.. Sending & taking kids.... cooking for breaking fast ... still breastfeeding even though the content has been 7 months.
Yesterday I felt too much with my husband when I was fighting to cook my child crying, I asked my husband to take care of his child because he wanted to put in the fish, and then my husband raised his voice... he said....
" other women don't have a lot of fuss like you... for a while asking for help... don't know how to take care of your children.. Take care of the child.. He wants you not to want me...."
My caught at that time... while eating my child while drinking water while I was crying, my husband was in the hall playing with his phone.
I was really in tears at that time but I tried to be strong & remember in my heart. When I was eating during my tears, my tears came out non stop because I was sad that my husband said that, I miss my husband..... he saw me crying but he didn't say anything & didn't even convince me.
I packed the kitchen & went straight to the sejadah... Maghrib & isyak prayer... because too sad & stressed... when aqib whine asked to support me to hit his arms until he fell =(aqib cried... his head was swollen =(yes My God.... my child..... =(
I used to tell the sister that I was complaining about when I was the first child.... I'm afraid that the same thing will be back this time. Doctor said that if I'm a little stressed I can act out of control... without myself realizing it. =(
I wanted to message you yesterday, but I'm afraid that I'm busy. I fell asleep right there until I woke up at 5.10 minutes this morning... it's late... I quickly went to the kitchen to make milk for my husband & serve sambal fish with rice yesterday, didn't have time to heat up the rice because I didn't get it..
When the husband eats he says if you know how to heat up the rice next time wake up early... why so lazy!... Mom I always wake up to finish the dishes early & it as messy as you are.. Once again my husband made me too Sad sis. I can't afford to eat... feel like being be because I'm sad... I drink milk & drink and continue to finish my husband & child's work clothes......
Usually I go out early because I want to send my child first & just walk to the lrt station. My legs melted this morning.... everyone looked at me... I know my condition is not organized....
So true sis.... when other people say anything.. We are okay again... but when the husband says something that gives us down... we will be very weak.. Crying & innocent children will become victims Without ourselves wanting to do that.
I miss aqib... pity mama's child =(
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I've been talking to June. June previously through postpartum depression (complaining) during the first child's confinement due to breaking abstinence & husband is not concerned.
& now June is doing the treatment to restore the mindnya.
Find out..... this complaining is a silent killer that no one is aware of the sudden changes.
Even the mother in confinement who is complaining will never realize what she's doing.
For husbands... please manage household matters together if you love your wife.
Sometimes when you hear one by one's story.... you only want love & care from your husband.
For June... don't worry dear... strengthen your heart... Allah is there... tyme pregnant even though easily touched... but June must be strong for the child in the content... pity the baby will be more sad because his mommy is sad .
Smile a little =) hugs *
To the mommy who read this & give the words of spirit for June.. Thank you so much =) June needs us....
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