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《周慧敏2013信仰見證文章》

2013聖誕快樂

Dear all

成為基督徒後，聖誕節對我的意義不一樣了。聖誕再不是關於聖誕老人、聖誕禮物、或聖誕狂歡派對的節日，聖誕是紀念著耶穌基督的愛而普世歡騰的日子。這天，提醒我祂賜給我們的恩典，讓我時刻都感受到被愛與能愛的幸福。所以，這個聖誕，我希望向您們表達愛和思念的同時，也藉著這個特別的日子為我的信仰作見證。

其實，訓練了自己40多年建立而來的一套信念，理應根深蒂固，能讓我心甘情願地放下這套建立已久的信念，由零開始，真的不可思議，神的力量遠遠超乎人能想像的。

未信主前，我曾經視個人修為作生活一大指標。因為自信，我認為依靠他人或宗教是軟弱的行為，所以，並不理解和輕視聖經強調因信才能得救的重要性。一天，我與朋友偶然談起宗教，意識到基督教以外的宗教大都強調自我修為的重要，然而，那套準則，幾乎是凡人不可能達到的。再者，我想到若聖經所說的屬實，那麼因我沒有信主，未接受基督的救贖，我即使在個人修為上到達到甚麼境界，都是沒有資格進天堂的罪人。相反，就算聖經所說的不實，我即使成為基督徒，其實都沒半點捐失，因為我不會在個人修為上退步。想到這裡，我決意用開放心認識基督教，了解聖經所強調的信，生命就這樣逆轉。

記得第一次到教會，適逢2009年的復活節崇拜，那天我的心情異常激動，我抖震的聲音無法唱出半句聖詩，但我在心裡，卻重覆地向神說著一句話：「天父，我回家了！」

初信主的那段日子，特別需要私人空間，好讓自己專注尋求神，免於因瑣事分心。但因為我是公眾人物，這個要求談何容易，我無法控制人，只能憑信心祈求神。一年下來，我與丈夫到教會崇拜，與教友查經，一切與尋求神有關的事宜，都被聖靈保護著，進行得很順利。記得決志當晚，我決心棄掉家裡一切與拜偶像有關的物件，禱告承認自己的罪，接受耶穌基督的救贖，感受到前所未有的輕鬆、平安，與寧靜。

聖經讓我明白得救不是靠自身修煉，而是靠基督的救贖，無人能夠憑行為自誇。就是因為世上沒有完美的人，世人就無需把個人修為的高低定位，因為永遠高處未算高。當我放下剛硬的心看清自己的罪，我喜見自己逐步放下了舊我，放下了盲目靠個人力量的一套自信，放下呈強的擔子。摒棄了成年人的外殼，讓我從孩提階段再生，而建立起對人對事的謙讓。越是懂得把自身的不足放大，把自滿縮小，我發覺自己更有勇氣包容憐惜人的軟弱。信仰令我的價值觀改變了很多。現在，我不會執著世界的眼光，更不時提醒自己不以自己的準則要求或論斷別人。就是因為信念明確，自己就更有能力去取捨和追求，尋到真正喜樂的根源，和那份靠個人力量無法相比的強大信心。

如果不是神的安排，很難想像在我尋找祂的道路上，能走得這般通暢無阻。回想這段路，其實神的使者早已陸續在我的生活裡出現，為我的信作預備，保守我的心直到受浸。隨著2010年浸禮的進行，我的舊我就如跟著基督死去般浸進水裡去。我從水裡起來那刻，我就如跟隨著基督復活，成為新造的人。哥林多後書5章17節記著說：「若有人在基督裡，他就是新造的人，舊事已過，都變成新的了。」

受浸後，相信神會藉著更多試煉，讓我學習信靠和順服祂，而得以在靈裡成長，以神喜悅的方式生活。今後，因著信，我已得著平安的心，欣然面對未來的考驗，走在光明與愛的道路中，盼望基督再來。我感謝神讓我看清自身的不足，給我謙卑的心去繼續尋求，好好愛神，愛人，愛自己。

2014年，是我踏進演藝界的第28個年頭。這些年來，與大家建立了的一份友誼，相信是我回顧演藝生涯裡得著最珍貴的禮物。過去，我接收了很多愛，今天我可以藉著同樣的藝人身份和崗位透過工作回報支持者，是我最大的福氣。感謝神讓我們相遇，以愛互動。2013的聖誕，無論您們身在高處或低處，願您們都能感受到祂給我們的愛，而得著那份平安與喜樂！

親愛的，聖誕快樂！God Bless！

Love
V :)

2013 Merry Christmas

Dear all

Christmas has a new meaning to me after I have become a Christian. The festival, no longer about Santa Claus, Christmas present or rave party – it is now a time to celebrate the love of Jesus Christ and the joy to the world. This day reminds me of the grace given by God, I feel so blessed that I am able to love and be loved. At this Christmas, when I am telling you how much I love and miss you, I would like to take this special opportunity to witness for Christ.

Honestly, I have trained myself to follow my own rules for more than 40 years. These principals are supposed to have deep-rooted in my mind. But I have changed, I am willing to let go my long-established self-belief and rebuild a new me. God’s power, far beyond our imagination, is truly amazing.

Prior to my believing in God, I regarded personal development as an ultimate goal in my life. I was always self-confident, regarding the dependence on others or relying on religion is a kind of weakness. You can imagine - it was reasonable that I didn’t understand and even look down on what is emphasized in the Bible – salvation only comes from faith in God. One day, my friends occasionally chatted with me about religion, I then realized that the other religions (other than Christianity) stress on the importance of self-development. But the standards set by them are almost impossible to accomplish. Then I thought more about it - if what the Bible tells us is true, I would consider myself not yet qualified to believe in God - because I have not obtained salvation from Jesus Christ, that means no matter how well I have developed myself, I am still a sinner, still not eligible to get into the gate of heaven.
But, how about the Bible is wrong? I won’t lose anything even if I decide to be a Christian – I am still the same person and my personal quality will not be affected. I decided to open my heart to learn about Christianity, to understand the faith emphasized in the Bible. My life has been changed since then.

I remember it was the 2009 Easter Service, the first time I went to church. I was extremely excited and I couldn’t sing the hymn at all with my trembling voice. But in my heart, I kept praying to God: “Father, I am home! I am home!”

In my early stage of becoming a Christian, I tried to minimize distractions from trivial issues and spare more room for myself to focus on seeking God’s mercy. But being a public figure, it is not easy to have a lot of privacy, I couldn’t do anything but only pray to God for help. For the whole year I felt very blessed by the Holy Spirit, everything relating to my seeking of God went on smoothly, such as going to church with my husband and gathering with fellow Christians for bible study groups. On the night when I made a commitment to follow Jesus, I decided to clear away everything at home that is in relationship to false idol worshipping. Then I prayed to God and confess my sins, and received salvation from Jesus Christ. Immediately, I felt so relaxed, peaceful and calm, I have never felt as easy.

The Bible teaches me a lesson – salvation comes from Jesus and not self-development, nobody can boast about themselves a well developed person. In fact, no one is perfect and there is no need to judge the level of self-development. After I have let go of my stubborn mind and seen my own sin, I am happy to see that I have gradually left my old self behind and no longer solely depend on my own confidence or strength. I don’t have to gear up and show my strong sides anymore, I am free from the hardship. Abandoning the adult self, I am reborn as a kid and I have more courage to accept the weakness of human. My value changes after I am in God - no longer persistent to man’s value. And I always remind myself not to judge others with my own criteria. Now I have a clear direction towards seeking God, I am more powerful to let go and seek for the ultimate source of joy, as well as the great faith which self-strength can never compare to.

I cannot imagine without God’s mercy, how can I walk so well on the path leading to Him? But when I look back, God’s messengers have gradually come into my life and prepared me for my change, as well as preserving my heart till my baptism. At my 2010 baptism ceremony, the ‘old me’ died, just like Jesus Christ immersed into water after his death. At the moment I was raised from water, I was reborn just as Jesus’ resurrection and became a new person. “Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!” 2 Corinthians 5:17.

After my baptism, God allows trials and testings to help me grow deeper in my trust in Him. I learned to grow in the Holy Spirit, and to live my life in a way pleasing to God. I now have a peaceful mind and I am contented to face the coming challenges, walking on the path of light and love and wait for Jesus to come again. I am really thankful to God for guiding me and grant me a humble mind to seek for Him, to love God, love everyone and myself.

The coming year 2014 is my 28th year being an artist. I am very happy that we have built friendship and stayed close, this is the most treasured gift in my career. In the past I received a lot of love from you, today I am glad that I am able to return my love as an artist, this is a real blessing. Thank God for letting us gather together and interact with love. At 2013 Christmas, no matter you are struggling or enjoying life, I hope that you can feel the love, peace and joy from Him!

My dear, Merry Christmas! God Bless!

Love
V :)

【一切的失敗和不足，都是最美好的安排】
All Failures & Lacks Are The Best Things to Happen to Us

三個月前，收到來自台灣客人的這封電郵時，開心和心酸交織著在心裡。

開心，因為這是一年前通過Zoom視訊的客人。他居然在我們看八字的一週年，特地寫了封感謝函給我，真有心！

心酸，因為他寫在電郵裡的低落心情，我完完全全明白。

他的經歷，是我的曾經。我當初也是很難，很久才能走出來。

有一回，我為一位芳華正茂的女子批八字時，她很用心的寫下我說的話。

論寫筆記的完整，她是我客人當中的佼佼者。

寫到一半，我注意到她的右手開始微微顫抖。我以為是空調的風太大了，冷到她，便問她要不要披巾。

她說，是她的焦慮症發作。

「我沒在兇你，也沒對你嚴厲，你為何突然焦慮？」

「我.....打從今年疫情打亂了我的計畫，我就一直很焦慮。我覺得我很沒用，同學們都前進了，只有我現在什麼都不是，亂糟糟的。我就一直很緊張，萬一我一直都是這樣，怎麼辦？」

說著，她眼眶一紅，眼淚像斷了線的珍珠鏈似的灑下來。

我的媽呀！是我的樣子長得很催淚，還是我的聲音聽起來很虐心？怎麼客人，不分男女老少，東南西北，看到我好像都很容易哭？

我抓起一張紙巾遞給她。

「所以，我不是來了嗎？你來找我，就是要問個明路，而你很幸運那麼快就看到我啦！你看你的筆記寫得多工整，多齊全。我很多客人都不如你啊！我今天的工作，就是來給你答案的。我沒有把握，也不會接你這份差事。我接了，就代表還可以補救。你照著我的指示去做，一定柳暗花明又一村。」

又另一回，一位四十多歲的媽媽請我看兒子的八字。

我在批著八字時，這位媽媽點頭認同，然後就聲淚俱下。

我轉頭看著她沈默不語的先生。我說錯了什麼嗎？太太哭成淚人，你怎麼連紙巾也不拿給她啊？

「我是個沒有用的母親，很不稱職的母親。我沒有辦法教好孩子。我很愛他，可是很多時候我都不知道要怎麼做，我就會對他發脾氣，說狠話，過後我又後悔。我忍下來，可是後來還是會一樣！」

我沒打斷她，等她的哭聲逐漸小聲後，我柔柔的說：「我來啦！我坐在你前面了。你已經看到我，就是有辦法了。你知道你自己不行，會去找辦法，就代表你願意去學習做個好媽媽啊！」

我把紙巾遞給她，再說：「不要哭了，要不然，別人看了以為是我不要借你錢，才把你弄得那麼傷心。」

曾幾何時，我們都會以外在所擁有的，來定義自己的人生是否值得自己喜歡。

從原生家庭、樣貌、健康、身型、智力、天賦等，到後來的學歷、友情、事業、財富、婚姻、子女......

哪一樣沒有，而偏偏是我們最想要的，我們就會認定自己失敗的一塌糊塗。

我認為這就是普通教育最大的問題所在。父母老師都是這樣把我們「分門別類」的。值不值得父母疼愛或向親朋戚友炫耀，也離不開那幾點。

久而久之，我們也只會以「成功」來定義自己是否有價值，甚至來衡量自己是否有活下去的勇氣。

我比較喜歡佛法的定義。我們每個人都是一尊佛，六道眾生皆有佛性，只因一時的迷，因此墮落在苦輪不停的輪迴。

可正因為我們有佛性，我們都有無窮無盡的可能。每個人的內在有著很強大的力量，等著我們遇到明師後，去發掘、探索和了解。

而這天生俱來的力量，就是你改命立命的資本。

如果人生順風順水，我們永遠不會想要出離，誤把人間當極樂，所以一定要有苦，我們才會意識到，為什麼我們會在這鬼地方？要怎麼樣才可以離開這鬼地方去到極樂？

反過來，我們都應該感恩自己遇到的挫折，因為從這些苦中，我們才能生出智慧。

沒有一個八字是完美的。一切的失敗和不足，都是最美好的安排，如此你才會有出離心，返本歸源。

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3 months ago, when I received this email from my Taiwan client, there was this feeling of bittersweetness.

I was happy because this was the client I did a Zoom consultation last June. He sent me this email on the one-year anniversary date of our Zoom call, to express his gratitude. How sweet!

On the other hand, I could relate to the emotional turmoil he felt at that point in his life.

His experience was my past. It also took me a very long time to walk out from my gloominess.

Once, I analysed the Bazi of a very young lady. She was meticulously jotting down notes as I spoke.

Her detailed note-taking skills easily took the top place among my clients.

Halfway through, I noticed her right hand was trembling slightly. I thought it was due to the cold draft from the air conditioning, so I asked if she needed a shawl.

She replied that it was her anxiety disorder acting up.

“I was not fierce or strict with you. What caused your sudden anxiety?”

“I…ever since the pandemic disrupted my plans, I have been in this state of anxiety. I kept feeling useless. All my classmates are progressing expect me. I have nothing to show for and my life is in a mess. I am very anxious. What if I continue to be like this? What am I going to do?”

As she spoke, her eyes turned red and tears started rolling down like a broken strand of pearl necklace scattering onto the ground.

Oh dear! I am beginning to wonder if I have a tear-jerker face or a heart-tormenting voice. Why do my clients, regardless of gender and age, North South or East West, seem to cry easily when they see me?

I grabbed a piece of tissue and handed it to her.

“Ain’t I here already? You came to me for a roadmap and you are very lucky to see me so soon. Look at how precise and neat your notes are! Many of my clients aren’t even on par with you. My job today is to give you answers. If I didn’t have the confidence, I would not have taken up your request. Now that I did, that means there is still hope. If you follow my instructions, you will see things looking up very soon.”

On another occasion, a mother in her forties came to me for her son’s Bazi consultation.

As I was analysing, the mother nodded her head in agreement. The next thing I know, she started weeping loudly.

I turned to look at her husband, who had been silent all along. Did I say something wrong? And hello, your wife was crying. Why weren’t you gentleman enough to give her a tissue paper?

“I am a useless mother. I am incompetent. I do not know how to teach my son well. I love my son very much. But many times, I do not know what to do and thus I flare up at him and speak harshly. I always regret afterwards. I tried enduring but it still ends badly!”

I did not interrupt her and waited for her cries to soften, before speaking gently, “I’m here! I’m already sitting in front of you. You are looking at me now and that means help is here. You know that you are incompetent, so you went looking for solutions. That means you are willing to learn how to be a better mother!”

I handed a piece of tissue and said, “Don’t cry anymore, otherwise, other patrons will think that it’s because I refuse to lend you money.”

Since young, we have been using external possessions to define whether our lives are worth liking.

The family we are born into, our looks, health, body shape, intellect, talents, and then we move on to compare our academics, friendships, career, wealth, marriage and children.

If we are lacking in the area we covet most, we grade our lives as a failure.

I think this is the biggest problem in societal education. Our parents and teachers categorized us that way. Whether we as children are worthy of their love and bragging, depends on the few points above too.

Thus over time, we can only use the term “success” to determine whether we are of value, for some people, whether they should live on to take their next breath.

I very much prefer the definition in Buddhism. We are all Buddhas. Each and every sentient being in the six realms has a Buddha nature in them. But they got lost momentarily and fell into the endless wheel of reincarnation.

Yet, because of our Buddha nature, we have an unlimited source of potential. Every one of us has a very powerful strength inside us. It is just waiting for us to meet an accomplished teacher, so that we have the tools to explore and understand it:

And this strength that we are born with is the capital for us to transform and establish our own destiny.

If life is smooth-sailing, we would never want to leave and would mistake this mortal realm for Pureland. Thus, we all need sufferings, to realise that we should break out of this hell of a place. There has to be a better world somewhere. So how we get there?

We should, in fact, be grateful for all the setbacks and failures we have. Because it is from these sufferings, our wisdom arise:

No single Bazi is perfect. Every failure and lack we experience is the best arrangement for us, so that the heart of renunciation will arise in us and we will return to where we came from.

翻聽Bob Dylan的《Desolation Row》湧起一股莫名的觸動，感覺就像走過了一條漫長的荒涼之路。頭兩句不知怎的讓我想到最近的香港：

They’re selling postcards of the hanging
They’re painting the passports brown

他們販售吊刑的名信片
他們把護照髹成啡色

然後我便分外留神聽接下來發生甚麼事：

The beauty parlor is filled with sailors
The circus is in town
Here comes the blind commissioner
They’ve got him in a trance
One hand is tied to the tight-rope walker
The other is in his pants
And the riot squad they’re restless
They need somewhere to go
As Lady and I look out tonight
From Desolation Row

美髮店擠滿了水手
馬戲團就在城後
然後來了一個特首
他們將他發入吽竇
一隻手綁住走鋼線高手
另一隻插在褲袋裡頭
還有防暴警察全在煩躁無休
他們需要某個地方抖抖
像這位小姐和我遍夜尋求
由荒涼之路口

然後找到哪裡去？似乎是酒館。

Cinderella, she seems so easy
“It takes one to know one,” she smiles
And puts her hands in her back pockets
Bette Davis style
And in comes Romeo, he’s moaning
“You Belong to Me I Believe”
And someone says, “You’re in the wrong place my friend
You better leave”
And the only sound that’s left
After the ambulances go
Is Cinderella sweeping up
On Desolation Row

灰姑娘，她似乎幾開放
「講嗰個就係嗰個。」佢笑咗
然後將雙手插進後袋
貝蒂戴維斯的風格
然後來了個羅密歐，佢喺度呻吟
「你係屬於我㗎我相信！」
然後有人話：「你來錯地方喇朋友，
你最好離開。」
然後唯一留低的聲音
在救護車走了之後
是灰姑娘的掃地聲
在荒涼之道上

我很喜歡這一種講故事的歌，因為這才叫做「吟遊」。當現在的歌失去了這種吟遊性，就空餘下一堆感質。我們已經不再用灰姑娘來形容負責打掃地方的女人，我喜歡這樣的形容，但設定跟原著是反轉的：掃完地，一到十二點，她就準時穿回自己的玻璃鞋。

然後已經好夜好夜了：

Now the moon is almost hidden
The stars are beginning to hide
The fortune-telling lady
Has even taken all her things inside
All except for Cain and Abel
And the hunchback of Notre Dame
Everybody is making love
Or else expecting rain
And the Good Samaritan, he’s dressing
He’s getting ready for the show
He’s going to the carnival tonight
On Desolation Row

現在月亮就快都看不見
繁星也開始隱淡
占卜未來的女人
甚已將她的所有東西收起
所有除了該隱和亞伯
以及聖母院的鐘樓佗俠
人人都在做愛
或其餘的在等雨
然後有個好撒馬利亞人，他在換裝
他已經準備好出騷
今晚他將會前往嘉年華
在荒涼之道上

突然輪到《哈姆雷特》的女主角奧菲利亞登場：

Now Ophelia, she’s ’neath the window
For her I feel so afraid
On her twenty-second birthday
She already is an old maid
To her, death is quite romantic
She wears an iron vest
Her profession’s her religion
Her sin is her lifelessness
And though her eyes are fixed upon
Noah’s great rainbow
She spends her time peeking
Into Desolation Row

現在奧菲利亞，她就倚在窗旁
我真為她擔心
在她廿二歲生日時
她已經是一個老女僕
對她，死亡是幾浪漫
她穿了一件鐵的背心
信仰就是她的自白
白活就是她的罪名
雖然她已定睛望着上方
那道挪亞的偉大彩虹
但她仍是費上時間來偷望
那條荒涼之路

而你有沒有聽過愛恩斯坦拉小提琴？這一個卻不是那一個，因為他太潦倒了：

Einstein, disguised as Robin Hood
With his memories in a trunk
Passed this way an hour ago
With his friend, a jealous monk
He looked so immaculately frightful
As he bummed a cigarette
Then he went off sniffing drainpipes
And reciting the alphabet
Now you would not think to look at him
But he was famous long ago
For playing the electric violin
On Desolation Row

愛恩斯坦扮成羅賓漢
帶着他車尾廂的回憶
在一小時前才經過這裡
和他的朋友、來自善妒寺的僧侶
他看起來不染得可怕
尤其在他討煙的時候
接着他走去嗅着水喉
叨唸着字母
現在你不會想望到他
但好耐之前他都風光過
奏着電子提琴
在那荒涼之路

從荒涼到荒淫？

Dr. Filth, he keeps his world
Inside of a leather cup
But all his sexless patients
They’re trying to blow it up
Now his nurse, some local loser
She’s in charge of the cyanide hole
And she also keeps the cards that read
“Have Mercy on His Soul”
They all play on pennywhistles
You can hear them blow
If you lean your head out far enough
From Desolation Row

猥褻醫生，他將他的世界
藏在一隻皮杯裡
但他所有無性的病人
他們正嘗試吹起它
現在他的護士，某個本地的失敗者
她是山埃孔的話事人
而她亦藏了一張卡片寫着
「願主垂憐他的靈魂」
他們全都玩着尖哨
你可以聽到他們在吹
如果你把頭傾得夠遠
從荒涼之道

卡薩諾瓦是意大利聞名的詩人情聖，這一段特別令我着迷：

Across the street they’ve nailed the curtains
They’re getting ready for the feast
The Phantom of the Opera
A perfect image of a priest
They’re spoonfeeding Casanova
To get him to feel more assured
Then they’ll kill him with self-confidence
After poisoning him with words
And the Phantom’s shouting to skinny girls
“Get Outa Here If You Don’t Know
Casanova is just being punished for going
To Desolation Row”

對面街他們已釘上帷幕
他們已準備好一場盛宴
《歌聲魅影》
牧師的完美形象
他們用湯匙向卡薩諾瓦灌藥
讓他稍為有安全感
然後他們用自信來殺掉他
之前用文字毒害他
然後魅影向瘦削的女孩們喊道：
「如果你不知道就請你們離開
卡薩諾瓦已經受罪因他
前往荒涼之道。」

接下來這一段，我懷疑是在描寫納粹的集中營：

Now at midnight all the agents
And the superhuman crew
Come out and round up everyone
That knows more than they do
Then they bring them to the factory
Where the heart-attack machine
Is strapped across their shoulders
And then the kerosene
Is brought down from the castles
By insurance men who go
Check to see that nobody is escaping
To Desolation Row

現在午夜所有特工
和超人類團隊
出來圍住了所有人
因為知道了不該知道的
然後把他們帶到工廠
那裡有心臟病機器
綁在他們的肩膊上
然之後那煤油
從城堡裡帶下來
有人會以防萬一
檢查一下看看是否無人能逃
逃往荒涼之路

Bob Dylan這首歌可能戲仿了英國詩人ES艾略特的長詩《荒原》，這首詩的一大特色是沒有人能看懂一個字——每個字都懂，湊起來卻不成意思。之前跟大家介紹過的艾茲拉龐德，勉強把《荒原》翻改成可讀的版本，加了很多註腳，務求令世人讀得通它的真意。這個情節，Bob Dylan也收錄在《Desolation Row》第九節裡面：

Praise be to Nero’s Neptune
The Titanic sails at dawn
And everybody’s shouting
“Which Side Are You On?”
And Ezra Pound and T. S. Eliot
Fighting in the captain’s tower
While calypso singers laugh at them
And fishermen hold flowers
Between the windows of the sea
Where lovely mermaids flow
And nobody has to think too much
About Desolation Row

讚美歸於尼祿的海王星
鐵達尼啟程於黎明
而每個人都發出喊聲
「你到底站哪一邊？」
而艾茲拉龐和ES艾略
在船長的塔上決鬥
卡利索普歌手取笑他們
漁民手執鮮花
在大海的窗戶之間
那裡有可愛的美人魚流過
此際沒有人想太多
關於那荒涼之路

是的，Bob Dylan是在模仿ES艾略特式的混亂，而在最後一節揭曉了混亂的原因：

Yes, I received your letter yesterday
(About the time the doorknob broke)
When you asked how I was doing
Was that some kind of joke?
All these people that you mention
Yes, I know them, they’re quite lame
I had to rearrange their faces
And give them all another name
Right now I can’t read too good
Don’t send me no more letters, no
Not unless you mail them
From Desolation Row

係呀，我尋日收到你嘅信
（大概在門鎖壞了的時候）
你問我最近過成怎樣
是一個需要笑的笑話嗎？
全部這些你所提及的人
係呀，我知道佢哋，佢哋都幾無趣
我需要重新構建他們的臉容
給他們全都搞混了名字
此際我已經不太擅於閱讀
不要再寄更多的信給我了，不要
除非它們是你寄自
於荒涼之路

聽過這麼多段，就像走完了一段漫長的荒涼的路，有一種想哭的感覺。Bob Dylan的音樂經常都給予的這種荒涼感，只有經歷很多的人才會有這種感覺，寫得出這種詞，流下了這滴淚。

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I wanna say im sorry but im not ok
（我想說抱歉但我不可以）
把過去背的太多心臟 有點累
全部都是我以為
只是自己 一人掉眼淚

那天之後一直在想配不配
消息發了那麼多條好狼狽
I want you to stay
（我想你留下）
I want you to stay
（我想你留下）


你的笑聲現在我都聽不見
我多麼想我們之間的時間靜止
我總是告訴自己一定抬起頭
控制住自己別讓淚水往下流

別再屏住呼吸
男人要有點骨氣
以後只顧著自己
該忘記 就忘記
I wanna say that im sorry
（我想和你說對不起）
But i really not ok
（但我真的很難過）


I wanna say im sorry but im not ok
（我想說抱歉但是我不可以）
Ye Tracing back time we have been a long Way
（在一起的回憶那麼長）
Just treat me as a Passerby
（就讓我做一個過客）
You can go fly away from my heart like a Butterfly
（你可以飛走從我的心裡離開）
Till Nothing gonna say
（像只蝴蝶什麼也不說）

But im just saying im not ok, love is not game play
（但我只想說我很累，愛情不是遊戲）
I pray to god everyday if you wanna come back
（我每天向上帝禱告如果你想回來）
If u wanna look around
（如果你想找我）
Eventually i swear ur dream boy will be always there
（我發誓你的男孩會一直在這裡）

I wanna say im sorry but im not ok
（我想說抱歉但我不可以）
把過去背的太多心臟 有點累
全部都是我以為
只是自己 一人掉眼淚

那天之後一直在想配不配
消息發那麼多條好狼狽
I want you to stay
（我想你留在我身邊）
I want you to stay
（我想你留在我身邊）
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